why......why.....why........so tired of this place.......why must we do this and why must we not do that.....most importantly why is all this things happening to me.....in class i always seems that i am always happy,but deep in side i am not . thanks to roy , i always laugh when i tok to him....or maybe he makes me laugh.i might be laughing ,but actually i am not.so tired of all this things happening around me. maybe it is me......it is all my fault, i always screw up everything i do.......i am such a loser a good for nothing guy.hope that everything will end now, at least end my misery.seeing ppl in class ,so happy doing their things ,playing and everything makes me feel worst.....y can someone be happy everyday......and why can't i be those perso, although i act as one of those.......being honest i feel that the time i feel best in school, is during training and after training or in other words being with softballers(except some) and ppl in softball will know who they r.........in pri school i am a real happy person(i guess), i always enjoy going to school in pri school and everything.......haiz.......maybe i feel better with my family........with my cousins,nephews,aunts and uncle.......i hope that there is a place where i can just do wad ever i one and just.......haiz.....i don't even know wad i want and y y y y i am in this world ,wad am i .......................

just finished homework......this few days so sainz.had homec test in the morning,those that i read didn't come out those that i didn't come out.........i used almost the whole night yesterday just to revise the homec now no use le.......sure fail de.chinese teacher call us do compo, and after about half an hour i only wrote a paragraph.teacher call us to stay back for oral at 1 50and we stay in 2d till about 4 am did nothing except sleeping......

my pitching is turning from bad to worst t_t.....p.e the first lesson i got 25point for nafa...... so low.........played basketball during p.e.........then sec two(victor"s class)interupted without asking.then we have to go down to the court near the field.today is a bad day to study......almost sleep during elang, because teacher call us to read the reader's digest.then in elit ,more bad things happened........too bad don't wanna say.so the conclusion for all this is that it is a bad day.hahaz.and my pitching so lousy, then so many mistake.sign.don't wanna pitch le,so difficult............................

today lots and lots of homework.....just finish all.....lol......finally finally..john got caught by mr adrain,he was digging his nose in class(he always do that) and today he got a big big scolding from mr adrain.(hope that he won't do that again).for homec ,cooked spagetti...quite nice......finish all not like the macoroni.training:today zaihui(zai)got hit by the ball while bunting....this few training always have accident.tomorrow training.sainz wanna skip.because it is p.t

today the assembly still ok lah....better than the few last time.the lesson so sain,nothing much happened today like usual.oh at the hall ,dunno how the edc arrange the sit one.......arrange till our class and some other no place to sit............ (i didn't believe u did that, anyway thanks) for someone

today muscle still quite pain........lol......so in the morning tell miss z not going for training ,but in the end i still went.in the class nothing much happened,except thing that hamburger chen say in english.quite funny.lol.....it is not him ,it is actually us .we always change thing that he say to something else that is funny.today training so shiok , i strike someo ppl out.haha.after training we did the same things ,we went to the canteen to slak ,then went home.

double sain.......hand still a little pain,actually is muscle lah and hand. tomorrow training again.....i want to skip ,but cannot lah .just bear with like lor i guess.........today eng common test.........die sia, sure fail liao.got back science and chinese paper not bad both a1 lol . nothing to write liao..............

Hand pain......Sainz.....All because of yesterday training.After 2 hours of softball training , mr tong want us to do physical training (p.t). 15 push-up,15 dunno wad ,then 30 sit-up....count as one set.then teacher want us to do 2 set and 150 push-up done by the whole group. that was how i got the pain.T_T

Today................John(an idiot from my class) during homec, he did something disgusting.The teacher call us all to sit in front for lesson in the kitchen, then halfway through the lesson he farted, and the smell is so strong.........( i almost fainted).Then that is not all...........he put the correction tape on the lap or something i don't wanna say ,and one person saw it . He told the whole class ,then the teacher say something....if u wanna know more ask anyone boys from 1L. Then it was training time....the time i like most every week.But not today. It rained today....Sainz.......but some of us went to the gym. After the rain stop we went for training,we almost slak the whole training.When training was about to stop, the teachers came Mr Tong too. All roys fault he ask something stupid, and now we will have P.T tomorrow.....Sainz.

Wad a day all about chinese

The first thing i saw when i reach school.........ppl reading chinese textbook. Then i remember i got a chinese test .Then during recess i saw more ppl reading chinese and preparing for the test again.Then the test came i think i will fail it .Sainz. Then assembly chinese again........... Oh almost forgot,yesterday the hamburger chen(my chinese teacher) make me and some other friends to stay back because we fail the spelling........ Y is this few days all about chineses T_T

Wad a trip.........

We went to Pulau Ubin on 13/08/05. It is a trip i will nvr forget. Before we went there we meet at the jetty.Roy(softball) he call me to pull down joey(softball) shorts. And eventually we did,i pull on the left and he pulled from the right.Guess wad ......joey pants came down so easily.He chase roy and after he gave up on roy he came after me. Then something happened.Soon hui(softball) got in to the mess.joey holded on to his hand ,and he pulled his pants down AGAIN. Then joey kept hitting him. Soon hui got so angry he also hit joey ,and i don't wanna say the rest.........